“When you get to that place where we are all human, all sharing this planet for such short time and realize how precious it all is — then everything we do is better. We share more. We are more tolerant. We are more generous. We enjoy everything more. And we sleep better…”George LangeI watched Big tonight. A timeless classic. Tom Hanks as the eternal Peter Pan. I laughed remembering the crush I had on David Moscow (who plays young Josh Baskins). I love the moment where Hanks says, “I’m a child, and I’m not ready for all of this”. Don’t we all feel 13 inside? Adulting is hard.
More snow is on the way tomorrow, so today I went for a run. Yoga and running are my new distractions. When my heart hurts I run. When my stomach pinches with emptiness, I hit the mat. Out of my head, and into my body. Making puddles big enough to drown my sorrows. That’s the idea right?
The new year shifted everything for me. I haven’t had this much space in my life in a long time. Space to feel things, and think things, and create things. Creating not to share, not to be admired…creating simply for creation’s sake. Nothing left to lose.
Last Monday night I was at a dinner theatre performance of Thoroughly Modern Millie. Our waiter Scott played Trevor Graydon (Millie’s boss and initial love interest).
(Millie is trying to seduce her boss Trevor Graydon, who has nicknamed her John)
Millie Dillmount: Do you have a mo?
Trevor Graydon: A what?
Millie Dillmount: A moment. I would just love to get a man’s opinion of Rudolph Valentino.
Trevor Graydon: Huh?
Millie Dillmount: I mean, in The Sheik, he takes Agnes Ayres by brute force, and she enjoys it. She enjoys it… a lot. What is your opinion of brute force, Mr. Graydon?
Trevor Graydon: Well, I’m not for it. No, I’m not for it at all. No, that is not what women really want today. The late war has upset them. Now they are disillusioned. They yearn for truth. Give them a young man they can trust. Tom Sawyer, at twenty.
Millie Dillmount: I never read Tom Sawyer. Was he… sexy?
Trevor Graydon: He was only twelve!
Millie Dillmount: [seductively] So? If ya got it, ya got it.
Trevor Graydon: [shocked] Why John!
If trust is everything – and it is – maybe the perfect man (or woman) is the one who never grows up?
Remember when you wanted to grow up? So you could stay up late, eat whatever you want, drive, go on dates, drink…I’d give it all up to be 13 for one more day.
Time for more yoga.
“We are all alone, born alone, die alone, and—in spite of True Romance magazines—we shall all someday look back on our lives and see that, in spite of our company, we were alone the whole way. I do not say lonely—at least, not all the time—but essentially, and finally, alone. This is what makes your self-respect so important, and I don’t see how you can respect yourself if you must look in the hearts and minds of others for your happiness.”Hunter S. Thompson